I have just lived my worst day ever...

Training today was just a wrong wrong thing to begin with. There was so much better stuff i could've been doing instead. Despite coach's and Mr Tam's continual discouragement to have a short training today (And i really mean short... like 1hr?!), the team just insisted on it. I suppose if it'll do them good for tml's crutial match, i shouldn't be complaining but i can't help it... it's really way over my tolerance level today.

Nothing went right for me today, first i woke up late and suffered from lack of slp the whole day... then i thought i could get some slp before training in the evening, but no! I had to rush home to get my stuff and meet jm to accompany her to J8 to buy hair clip -.- But tt isn't so bad, just found it a waste of my precious slping time. Then i thought we could've gone to Spans to slack ard before training starts, but no again! Met up with ber and my senior to watch them eat lunch -.-" Ok, so tt's all over and we can finally go to Spans for training... 1hr dragged on... which was expected so i shan't be complaining. But the stupid thing was tt they kept saying they wanna talk abt the team, and in the end they wasted all the time talking abt useless stuff and watched the guys play instead... 6+ training ended and it dragged on until 8+ before they decided it's time to shower. And despite the fact tt i repeatedly said i wanna go off first cos im not having dinner with them, they made me stay behind to walk out with them... and since im all so used to that i did it... wait and wait and wait.... i really wanted to get home to rest, but they simply DUN understand~ But i thot nvm, i'll just walk out with them and can finally take a bus HOME! But once again, NO! made me stay with them for dinner, may i repeat... im supposed to have dinner at home! Darn it... it really drove me crazy and i was so tempted to just raise my voice and walk off, but for the sake of not creating anymore probs the team is already facing, i tolerated... BUt inside i was feeling damn lousy... And so, as usual... they insisted and insisted until the guys who refused to have dinner gave up and came along. How selfish can this be?! Y does letting ppl like us go home be so difficult?? I seriously dun understand, and nv will.... And so again, i waited like a damn fool when everyone's eating -.-""" Next, they had another comflict abt taking cab. Come on! If u wanna take just take, wat's so difficult abt that... I din wanna take cos i had straight bus home from tpy and it makes no sense for me to be wasting unnecessary money like that~ And they dun want me to take alone... i guess thay dun want me to feel left out, but they dun realise it's only making things worse... Well, jm had her reason cos she felt bad for making me wait until so late and just let me take a bus back... so she decided to take bus with me... but the rest were just super indecisive~ It was really driving me nuts, but i had to pretend nothing was wrong, wth! now the next prob comes... they wanna skip lessons tml to have breakfast at macs, i dun wanna skip anymore of my lects cos i;ve already been lagging so much due to the competitions~ but again!!!!! they would like it better we we stayed or went as a team... y the hell are they making things so difficult for everyone and themselves?! Watever it is, im staying for lecture and tt's tt... i would rather be in the LT not paying attention, than at macs having to go thru all these crap again~

Think abt it... i thot i could be home early for dinner for once after training... but now it's 11+ and i just got home not long ago, wat diff does it make from normal trainings?! WASTE OF TIME! And now, i have absolutely no mood for dinner... it's a horrible day and the only reason for me to "REN!" is for the sake of semi-finals against SAJC tml, we're all hoping for the best right now, and i dun wanna spoil it for everyone... it's really the very least i could be doing at all... All i need now is slp, and before that is to pray for tml... it's extremely crucial! Yeah, i dun wanna think abt all these anymore... just slp! i'll feel better tml, it always works... it's the only thing tt'll work for me right now.... just a bad bad day...

I've nv met ppl this fake before.... to me, it's all abt acting... Now, i really cherish the galfriends in my class.... and all my IJ pals! LOVE U ALL LOADS!! *muack muack muack* All u ppl are so real and sincere, no scheming or ploting... just REAL friends that care~ Is the outside world really this disgusting? It really makes me sick thinking abt it.... All tt is keeping my tolerence level up is the fact that there're only 2 more matches to go... so all the way NY! We've already come so far... It's gonna be over all so soon...