Sometimes i really dun understand myself... Why do i do things i totally hate? It does me no good at all, stress me out and waste my time... Am i just doing it because it is an obligation? Perhaps, but i dun see how i could possibly benefit anyone at all~ My presence wouldn't do anyone good... Maybe only waste more time for myself and others.. So why bother explaining for my absence and be so bothered by it? Guess i just dun want others to think im irresponsible... but wth~ With or without me it wouldn't make a difference... so why would they care?? I just don't see a point in all these... So why am i even bothered to type all these? To make myself better for the time being perhaps, but at the end of the day, i know i'll still be worrying and thinking about all these stupid and meaningless things... Guess it's all about doing pointless things, how many things in life have we done tt's totally pointless but we'll just do for the sake of doing? I suppose this is just one of them....